I’m not sure sometimes why I write things down. I think I have something important to say, but does anybody really care? We all have our own opinion on everything. Sometimes my husband says I need to not push my beliefs onto others or I will sound preachy. I do agree with him, my problem is, I just think if I can plant a little seed, in someone’s brain to open it up a bit, I have accomplished what I set out to do. Not that I have all the answers by any means. I am always educating myself though. I am open to everything and all opinions.

I have always been the type of person that would never argue my opinion, just in case I am wrong. There are many times the people you argue with, are so opinionated that it is just a argument, it doesn’t go anywhere. What fun is that? I don’t like arguing at all with anyone. Some people do though, they thrive on it. I don’t understand that at all.

I’m still reading my series of Anastasia, The Ringing Cedars. It is absolutely amazing. I’m on book 7. It makes me laugh a bit when I read parts were people are slandering the book and doing their best to make it out to be some kind of fairy tale. Really, do people have to slander what they don’t know? Just because something is different and a bit hard to comprehend, bang it’s a lie.

I found it funny one day I was talking to a girlfriend of mine. I was talking about my beliefs about death. Her statement back to me was, wouldn’t that be nice, if it was true. I kind of laugh a bit because it is what I actually believe. I find it sad, that not all people have a good feeling about death. Accept those that have had a near death experience. People that have experienced that usually say it is peaceful. I guess it’s just the unknown, that people have a hard time with.

Mind you, how can you be at peace with death when you have either been taught; you’re going to hell if you’re not good or there is nothing after you die it’s just over. How horrible are both those beliefs. I was raise with the teachings of Jehovahs witness, if your not familiar with these teachings, there are, that after you die you go back to dust, the dirt, were man came from, then after “Armageddon” which is the end of this system of things, you will be resurrected into a paradise.

I, at a very young age, did not feel right about this. It took me till I was 18 to leave the religion, because I didn’t want to hurt my dad. I had too though. It wasn’t fair for me to lie any more. I led a double life for many years. One thing my brother always said to me was, don’t you want to see mom again in the new system? We lost our mom when she was only 39 years old.

It was very hard through my life to deal with death. I would say a bit of an obsession. I was always curious. What does happen? Is there life after death? I talked in other posts of mine, how I believe everything is energy, you know if something feels right or wrong. You are born with this power to have emotions and intuition within you , unfortunately most people don’t listen to it.

I have just started learning to listen to it. Well my point here is if something feels right go with it if it makes you happy do it. Happy, how many of you are truly happy? Take away all your big fancy houses, cars and fashionable clothes. Are you still happy? If not, GET HAPPY. That to me would be “the meaning of life”.

Holy, can it be tough. To stay happy these days, that is. All you have to do is listen to the news or watch a bit of T.V and your day will go to shit. If you let things get to you, life will be miserable. Like the government these days for example. I would love to hear just once that they put a salary cap on government officials. But no they cap medical and teachers, how is that right. The poor teachers, I really hope that they fight against the government. It is unconstitutional what they are doing.

Taxes, all I have to do is write the word and everyone will cringe. Its like, the government are the biggest crooks out there. Seriously look at the difference between what you would call the elite and your average person which is most of the population. The “Elite” make as much money by coffee time on Monday as an employee does in a year. I would say it is a bit off balance, wouldn’t you? Now I do my best to not let all these things bring me down. It can be tough though. I suggest that people meditate and take time to calm your thoughts. Lets face it, does the voice in your head ever shut up, not likely.

Another thing that is good for the soul is gardening. It doesn’t have to be big. If you’re not into gardening, than just plant a few flowers in a pot. You will get gratification from seeing those flowers flourish and the benefits from being able to touch some good old fashion earth.

I am reading a series of books right now, they are the Ringing Cedars. About a lady that is from the forests in Siberia. The books are real and this woman is alive and well. A man called Vladimir Megre is the author and he tells of his encounters and experience with Anastasia.

I recommend this book to everyone, it’s life changing. You can get it at: http://www.ringingcedars.com

Always remember to breathe, consciously that is. The breathing we do unconsciously isn’t good enough you need to be aware of it. This is how to calm yourself. It will do you wonders.

The majority of the time, they are so fun to have. So amazing, to watch them grow and learn. They make my life worth so much more.You don’t ever want them to hurt or be hurt. You want to protect them from bullies, to falling at the playground.

On the other hand……….sometimes you want to ring their necks.
Something like the way Holmers does to Bart. They can try your patients to the
bitter end. I had a whole new respect, for parents, after I had kids that is
for sure.

It kills me, when I see a couple that isn’t in a strong
relationship in the first place, have a kid together. It will defiantly make or
break them. On the other hand I do think every woman should have a child to
experience the love (ok maybe not every woman but most). Even adopt, if you
can’t conceive god knows how many kids out there need a loving family. Children
are amazing. Ya, sometimes I have to keep reminding myself of that.

As hard as they are, I can’t imagine life without them. One
thing I do to keep my sanity, is meditate and no it doesn’t have to be a long
hhuuuummmmm session to work. I will just do it for 5 min, in my bedroom, it
makes all the difference in the world. I recommend it for anyone that has a
short fuse. Not that I do lol.

I grew up with a step-mom that had a short fuse and it wasn’t
fun. Bless her though, she did the best she knew how.  We certainly can’t go around blaming our upbringing
for our poor excuse of a life. I realized that at about 21 yrs of age. GET OVER
it I had to say to myself. From then on my life has been, my choice my
decisions, not the result of the life I grew up with.

If you have kids love them to pieces, and if you screw up
once in a while its ok. One thing I do if I lose it and yell at them, I
apologize after the fact. I tell them I lost it and I’m sorry. Kids aren’t
stupid treat them like human beings. We as parents are allowed to mess up once
in a while too.

The title of the article might throw you off a bit. I do
think woman are all that, I personally love being a woman. I just think we
should respect our men too. I know, you’re thinking what the hell. Well here it
is, I’m a little sick of all the feminist shit. That’s all, I do believe in
equal rights and that if a woman is doing the same job as a man she should absolutely,
be getting the same pay.

Men and women all need LOVE and that is what it all comes
down too. If you love someone you’re not going to treat them bad, and if you
do…. go away, get some help. Everyone in this world deserves to be Loved and
Respected and that is all there is to it.

Lets go back a bit, men were meant to be hunter gathers and
women were caring and took care of the family and home. Some were in there,
some men got a little carried away and started treating women with no respect
and women got sick of it and went totally the opposite. They had to show their
strength in fighting back. In came feminism.
Well I do believe it has done a lot of good for women that’s  for sure, I just think it is sad that we can’t
all just have respect for everyone and if you love someone treat them right and
if you don’t move on and don’t waste anyone’s time. As for the poor men out
there, we want the men to be sensitive, caring and romantic. What do we call
them…. O ya…..metro sexual, But heaven forbid, you men show any weakness than
you are just a wimp…you poor guys you just can’t win.

My thing is, the fact that, with all of this stuff that has
gone on over the years I sometimes think I’m not doing enough by, being a “stay
at home mom”. Even though, it is one of the hardest jobs in the world. I think
moms should get paid for it. I mean more than that a measly child benefit
check. I think it is easier to go to work and let a nanny or a daycare raise
your child…..Ok may be easier mentally, but not on my heart. I personally could
never do it….let someone else raise my kids that is. No offence to the moms who
want to work. We all have different wants in life. There is nothing wrong with
wanting to go to work or have a career. I’m just not one of them. I don’t mind
being as they say “barefoot and pregnant”.
I think in some cases the dads should be the ones at home especially if
the wife is making more money. In that case of course the dad should stay home.

On the other hand I also like to make money just on my own
time and not at the expense of my children. I am a hair stylist, so I have
always been able to make a couple bucks here and there. I have been at home
with my kids for almost 7 years now my youngest is  going to be 3 soon and I am now thinking
about working a couple of days a week. I love the fact that I have been able to
be a stay at home mom. Not everyone can, in this day and age.  I do believe that there are choices though,
and we have made sacrifices through the years to make this happen.

I’m sorry I’m kinda all over the place here, I just go off sometimes and that is what this blog is
for me and if you don’t like it than….well….don’t read it. I am entitled to my
opinion and so are you.

Well I must admit that being aware is a little tough sometimes. The more I educate myself the more I get a little upset at the world. I have to take a step back and remember we are exactly where we are supposed to be.

There is a reason for all of this. It is nice to know that we are in a time of great change. I don’t think the end of the world is coming in this year of 2012 but I do believe it is the end of an age. It seems that more and more people are waking up and realizing that life has to consist of more than just, waking up, going to work, and for most coming home and drowning out their shitty day with drugs or alcohol. Life is so much more than that. I do understand how people can fall into that rut though.

If you work for minimum wage or just slightly higher, how is anybody supposed to get ahead and be able to enjoy life, the way it is supposed to be enjoyed. I feel very fortunate that I have discovered as much as I have. I love life and I am raising my kids with the same attitude.

I heard a friend the other day say, she tells her grand-kids that, you go to school get an education and get a good job, that is how life is……well I just about… well let’s say I did my best to explain to her please STOP teaching them that. We should be teaching our kids, yes education is good but only to figure out what it is you love to do and then find a way to make money with that. DON’T get a job and work for someone else you will never be happy doing that, you should just call yourselves a slave if you do that…I know that sounds a little harsh but it is true. Think outside the box is all I am saying.

I know that there are some good companies out there that treat their employees with respect and pay them well, but they are far and few between.

With that said I wish sometimes I could tell people to pull their head out of their ass, and wake up. If you would like an example here is one. The pharmaceutical industry, really do you still believe they are in the industry of helping people. Yes there are times we need curtain meds to keep us alive, but think about this. If all the meds people were prescribed, helped them and all the vaccines people and babies were given kept them healthy………we would not need the pharmaceutical company and they would be putting themselves out of business. We all know this industry is thriving….huuummmmmm really I wonder why. They keep people sick.

If u would like a site to see some research here is one, http://mercola.com and if you go to http://thrivemovement.com there is endless amounts of research there on all sorts of topics that I talk about. It is a great education source.

Well I will stop my rant for today. Please just do some self education and don’t believe everything you are told. Never stop questioning things.

Most of the time it’s pretty easy, I am a positive person and generally happy. There are just times that nothing seems to be going my way. I truly believe in the law of attraction and that is why I never give up in my daily training.

I saw Phyllis Diller on the Rosie show yesterday she is one hell of a lady. She was saying that she always laughs and in her mind which she calls our computer. She says you have to “believe”. Believe, now that is where I struggle, it’s not that I don’t believe it’s just that I don’t seem to believe in myself.
I think it has a lot to do with my upbringing but I am the first to say you can’t blame your life on that.

Constancy, I think is one of my big problems. I do affirmations for a while then I stop. My “self talk” is not always good. I usually give up on myself before anyone else can give on me. Unfortunately I don’t think very highly of myself at times. I have improved, over the years in my personal growth. There are times though I fall back down. I do get back up and move on though, that is the only way to improve, we must get back up.

For some reason (I would think it is quit subconscious) I have thought if I don’t do or try something I won’t disappoint myself or others. Now I have learned that, that is a pretty shitty way of thinking. I read over and over that winners never quit and when you fall get back up. Losers give up and successful people always get up and keep trying. I guess than I am on my way to success, because I have been doing this for about three years (consistently) and I am not giving up.

See I came from a back ground of a very strict religion, but never agreed with what I was being told. It just didn’t seem right to me. I was never encouraged to do good in school or graduate or college for that matter. That was not even an option. Not because of money but because the end of this system, would be here any day. There were times I was taken out of school for the afternoons to babysit for my stepsisters. Now what does that say about how important school was to my family, out of ten children, not one of us graduated.

I think I’m a bit down on myself today. The reason for this post though is to show any one reading, that life is a struggle at times. It does go up and down, it’s how you deal with the downs that make the difference.

I am always doing my best to write stuff that is positive and will encourage people. The thing is I am human and I have struggles too. The most important thing about my blog is being real. I’m not perfect and I want people to be able to relate to me. I know for myself when I read some blogs I feel like these people are so perfect, when in reality we all have our struggles, just most people don’t put that out to the world. Maybe I’m a little crazy.

I am doing the master cleanse right now. If you don’t know what the master cleanse is here is a run down. First you do it for a min of 10 days and a max of 40. During those days you drink a mixture of fresh lemon juice mixed with water, maple syrup and cayenne pepper. Before bed you drink herbal laxative tea and in the morning you drink a mixture of water and sea salt, to flush yourself out. I know this may not sound too pleasant for most. Why the hell am I doing this, you might ask.

Well its purpose is to cleanse out all the toxins from your body. Toxins cause disease and that is a fact. So to stay healthy it’s good to do this 1 or 2 times a year. For me, I eat pretty healthy as it is, but not always. If I can do anything to maintain my good health I will. This cleanse may seem a bit extreme but surprisingly you’re not hungry at all. In the end your getting toxins, that have been in your body for years, out.

Did you know that 1 teaspoon of sugar will lower your immune system for an hour! Now that’s crazy. Think about how many people practically live on soda pop. I don’t think we have to wonder too much, about why there is so much disease in this world with all the crap we eat.

If you pay attention and eat real food, not processed you find yourself a bit happier and healthier. Life is much better when your healthy.

Do your best to take care of your body this year.

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I always said as a kid, all I want is to be happy. That was what I said any time someone asked what I want out of life. Ya know I have learned so much in the last few years. I have always been a happy person. I almost always have a smile on and for some reason people feel good around me.
I had one of the best compliments the other day, a new friend of mine said “ I don’t know what it is but as soon as I met you I felt comfortable” Now that is awesome in my world, I want everyone to be comfortable. After all it’s not who you are it’s how people feel around you.
I want people at my funeral to remember, how good I made them feel and remember that, feeling. Life is all feelings. There are good, there are bad. We all have the power to deal with a situation in a good way or bad way.
It’s your choice. Do you choose happiness or misery? As the saying goes “shit happens” during those times, you can only cope in a way that you know. For me I used to get very mad and sad, at the news, with every story because, lets face it news doesn’t broadcast very many good things, or anytime I hear about abuse or children being mistreated. Not feelings I like at all. (I do not watch news anymore) Then I read in a book, I think it was a spiritual instruction book. It said I don’t know exactly how it went but something like, you go through feelings of; Happiness, Joy, neutral, then sad anger and depression. What you want to do is stay in neutral, Don’t go below that. You want to keep the vibration of your body up. That is when good things start to happen.
We are all energy and good energy spreads. Of course there is going to be bad things. Let yourself feel it then move one, don’t dwell. I think a lot of the time it’s hard to move on because society has made it that you should be sad and dwell. For example if a loved one dies, of course you will be sad. For some reason we will beat ourselves, up if we have a happy feeling like its wrong. Seriously, do you think that loved one is going to want you to be unhappy forever, no they want you to be happy and get on with life and treasure the moments you had with them.
The point of this post is to just point out, life is full of upset and bad situations. On the other hand it is full of happiness and beautiful experiences. Do your best to stay Happy. If you can keep your spirit up life is soooooo much easier. Your light will shine and help others. It’s alright to let your light shine we need people in this world to do more of that. I know a smile is contagious, so smile and brighten the world.

One of the hardest things, to not do. This practice is amazing, when you pay attention to how much you do it, you realize the different ways it can be done. It is not always a bad thing. Let me rephrase that it’s not always done with bad intentions. It is still something to be aware of.
I know one example for me is when I’m driving. I tend to be a bit of a fast driver. So slow people on the road, can be a bit annoying, but it always seems that when I’m sitting there, complaining about them in my head, once I get a chance to pass, I realize they look lost or its a little old man or woman that can barely see over the steering wheel. Then I feel like crap for cursing them. Another one that happens to me is when people don’t signal, that drives me crazy at times. Then of course, I will find myself in my own little world and realize that I didn’t signal. O no, I was the asshole right there. It tends to humbles you a bit. Which I think is a very good thing to happen to us every once in a while.
I think, if we are always judging ourselves that contributes a lot to the judgment of others too. I have found since I stopped judging myself I tend to look at people in a different way. People fascinate me I love to hear life stories and how people got to where they are now. We all have one and most have some very difficult times in them.
So we wouldn’t want judgment from others during those times, we would want empathy and understanding. If someone is rude to you give them a little blessing in your head. They might be going through a really bad divorce or maybe they have lost a loved one, you never know. Maybe the customer just before you, ripped there head off, you never know. I know one thing for sure, never take it personal. It’s not you, it’s what they are going through. Unless you just treated them badly, then shame on you, and don’t do it again.
Boy, there are many times in my younger years that, I’m not so proud of. I have more patients for those teens and young adults. It is a difficult time of life. Take a step back and remember “The Golden rule”. Do into others that you would have done unto you.

I read a book called “The Four Agreements” By Don Miguel Ruiz. It is amazing everyone in this world should read it. When I first read it, I was amazed at how it seems as though it should be so easy to practice. The agreements are, Be Impeccable with Your Word, Don’t Take Anything Personally, Don’t Make Assumptions and the last is, Always Do Your Best. Lets talk about these a bit.

When I read it, I was like, of course this is just common sense isn’t it? Unfortulely common sense is not so common. When I started to practice it, it was a bit harder than I thought. I realized how many things I take personally. How many times I assume in a day. I might not always be impeccable with my word and sometimes, I might half ass some things in my life.

I realized after that I shouldn’t beat myself up over it. I just start over the next day. Now though, it is getting easier. Especially assuming, I found when I let that go, my husband and I got along a lot better. I used to get upset every time he was in a bad mood thinking, did I do something? I would run through my day and think and over analyze about what I could have done.

When really, it wasn’t me at all. He was just having a shitty day. Sometimes I think men are just as moody as us women, maybe more at times lol.

With my children it was hard when holidays come around. You can’t be impeccable with your word and tell your kids that Santa exists. In the book they give a very good example I would like to share with you. We teach our kids, Santa brings presents to those who have been good all year, right. Well the kids know good kids from bad kids. They know if the kid next door has been good or bad. Now lets say both kids ask for a bike for Christmas, but your family can’t afford a new bike at the time. So your child doesn’t get one, but the kid next door, ya, the one that always picks on your kid. Well he does get a bike.

What message does that give your child? I’m not saying make sure you tell your kids the truth about everything, they must be age appropriate. It’s just, be careful with how you choose to tell them things. Kids are not stupid. They are after all, just little human beings.